The One

The One
-Tyson B. Troxel
-October 2009



Here I am.
Here I am.
All alone.
Sitting in the dark.
Staring up into the night.
Darkness all around me.
I am so lonely.
So so lonely.
There you are.
All popular.
You're the latest thing.
Everyone loves you.
You're everyone's friend.
Always smiling.
Never lonely.
I go to church.
I am a stranger in the crowd.
Noone notices me.
I smile.
I say hi.
Everyone passes me by
Everyone ignores me.
Noone bothers.
Noone takes me to lunch.
I go home alone.
So so lonely.
You're everyone's friend.
Everyone talks to you.
They all want to hold your hand.
They all want to be like you.
You say all the right words.
You make everyone laugh.
Looking so good.
Smelling so good.
Your social calendar is always full.
You're never alone.
Here I am.
Begging for one.
Just one.
Won't somebody just say hi.
Notice me.
Ask why I'm crying
Ask if I'd like to tag along.
Be one of you.
Part of you.
I'm so lonely.
You're never lonely.
You have somebody.
Always someone holding your hand
Always someone cheering you on.
Even when you're alone.
You're not really.
There's always a replacement.
You always have someone.
Never lonely.
Here I am.
I wake up alone.
I eat my meals alone.
I go to work alone.
I check my phone.
Noone calling.
I go to the store and buy for one.
I shop for one.
I talk to noone.
Noone really cares.
I'm so lonely.
At home you are a couple.
At the movies you are loved on.
At the store you shop for a family.
Phone always ringing.
Noone forgets your birthday.
Always going out to lunch.
Sipping coffee with friends.
Always out and about.
Friends are always near.
You're never lonely.
I wonder.
Oh God...
I wonder.
Am I the only one.
Is it just me?
Is there just one.
One other.
One somebody.
Like me.
There you are.
Tears in your eyes.
So so lonely.
All alone.
Noone's beauty queen.
Noone's Juliet.
Noone's friend.
Noone's Somebody.
Tears in your eyes.
All alone.
So so lonely.
Here I am
There you are
Sitting in church
You're doing the same
Won't somebody just say hi
Feel like going home
Tears in my eyes
Please won't someone notice me?
This is crap!
This isn't worth it
Church isn't worth this misery
I'm not coming here anymore
Noone would care
I'm just a stranger
God doesn't need me here
God doesn't love me
Screw it!
Tears flow down her cheeks.
He gets up and leaves
She runs out, crying
Here I am
All alone
So so lonely.
Sitting at home
Lights out.
Eating another frozen burrito
There she is
All alone in her empty apartment
Eating her leftover chili
Tears in her eyes.
Contemplating
Maybe
Ending it all
Another day at the library
She's sitting in the children's section of the library
Shelving books
Reading Dr. Seuss
Walking into the children's section
Tears in her eyes
Lonely
I just want a child of my own
I just want to be loved
Someone to read books to
Someone to love me
Grief and loneliness overcome her
He can't stand the pain of loneliness anymore
She leaves in tears
He notices Dr. Seuss on the floor.
Outside
Running to her car
Rain coming down
Tears flowing down her cheeks
She drops her keys
Her cell phone falls out of her purse
She falls to her knees sobbing
“Why, God, Why??????”
Picking Dr. Seuss up
He hears tires screeching to a stop
He hears a loud scream
He falls to his knees
Tears fill his eyes.
“Why, God, Why!!!!!”
Lying lifeless in the bed
Tubes hooked up every which way
No sign of life.
Noone coming to hold her hand.
Her thoughts tell her to give up.
Something else tells her to hang on.
Please hang on.
He gets on his bike.
Feels like giving up
Peels out and into the intersection
Doesn't bother looking.
Tires screech to a stop
He is airborn
Falls to the pavement with a hard thud.
He goes limp
Days pass.
She lies there lifeless.
No sign of life.
No desire to live.
Noone comes to visit.
Noone cares.
Why should she.
He wakes in a hospital bed
Lucky to be alive.
Not a broken bone.
Just cuts and bruises.
Wishing he were dead.
Noone would miss him.
He doesn't have any friends.
All alone.
So so lonely.
She wakes.
He awakes from a nap.
Flowers on her table
Flowers on his
A Bible and a note
A Bible and a note.
“I Love you!
I am YOUR friend
Don't give up.
Come back to church
I'll be in blue.
I love you”
-The ONE
He smiles
She smiles
Someone loves me
Someone loves me
“BUT Who?”
He walks into church
Noone notices him.
He takes his seat
Third row, 1st chair, left side
She enters church
All alone
She takes her seat
5th row, 1st seat, right side
He looks around
She looks around
Everyone is wearing red
Everyone is wearing green
WAIT!!!
Someone is wearing BLUE
He's wearing BLUE!
Service begins
Praise and worship ends
Tears are in his eyes
He's all alone
She's crying
She just wants to leave
Pastor gets up.
“Welcome everyone!
Take a moment,
Greet a stranger”
Noone cares
Why should I bother
I'm just a nobody.
Tears running down her cheeks
She walks up to him
Puts her hand on his shoulder
God softly whispers:
“I LOVE you”
He turns
Looks at her
She smiles
Afraid...So afraid
He smiles
Tears in his eyes
She smiles
“Hi”


***This is a VERY true depiction of REAL life events. This happens all the time. I am one of the LONELY! While I am an OVERCOMER of the loneliness, I still know just how lonely lonely feels. I am one of the many in the crowd. I still battle the loneliness.
Won't you please take one minute of your time and be:
THE ONE