Letter to her

Letter To Her
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-August 2009
-Tyson B. Troxel

Where were we,
When we first met?
Who loved who 1st?
Did you love me, as much,
As I loved you/
Did your heart,
Beat as fast as mine?
Does it even matter now?
You left me.
Didn't you?

And who proposed 1st?
Who wanted whom the most?
Who told the 1st lie?
Who lied about their age?
Whose sad song was sadder?
Who kissed whom?
Who's lyng eye told the biggest lie?
Who was the bigger fan?
i gotta have you.
I'm so in love.
Whatever!

And who said "I Do" 1st?
Who married whom?
Were we really in love?
Oh you were so in love.
Who said it 1st?
Who did it 1st?
Who made the 2am phone call for help?
Who told who, to "DIE!"
Was it love?
NEVER!

Who chased who?
Who went to the end of the earth for who?
Who's sledgehammer was in te closet?
Who maxed out the credit cards?
Who couldn't drive?
Who bought the convertible?
And, you cheated..
And you didn't love me,
And I slept with a knife under my pillow.
And a bottle of whiskey by my side.

I was your Romeo
You were my ugly step-sister.
But, your friends,
Were all Cinderella's.
We traveled the world.
I bought you all kinds of fancy things.
You gave me lots of money.
Beer became my lover.
You bought a gun.
The fights were typical.
Cold suppers were normal.
I hated you.

You had famous friends,
I had too many lovers.
I ducked the flying bottles.
You cried hysterically.
I never came home.
You found a new life.
All my friends became yours.
I did a stint in jail.
You erased me from your life.
I came home to a empty house.
And a broken whiskey bottle.

I want you to know 2 things.
Only two.
Maybe three.
I hate you!
I love you!
I'm clean and sober now!
I go to church now!
I have a good life now.
I have good friends now.
I have a life worth living now.
Do you??

I hope you think of me
And know I think of you.
If we could do it all again,
I'd laugh, and curse,
"Yah, Right!"
You aren't worth re-visiting.
I wish you well.
I really do.
I hope you have a good life.
I hope you're happy.
I know I finnally am!
Just forget about me!

If sometime we cross paths,
In the future,
I'll be nice,
I'll smile,
I'll wish you well,
I'll let you have your say,
I'll tell you how well I am,
And then,
I'll give you the finger,
And kick you out of town.
Outta my life
Forever!!


Serously,
I don't really hate you.
Not much, anyways!
I still love you.
Like I love whiskey.
I just don't
Have time for your nightmares anymore.
I wish you well,
I hope you meet your soul mate.
I hope you get all you deserve.
As for me....
I still hate you!

One last thing, darling,
You could've given me one last shot.
One last thrill.
We could've talked it out.
We could've worked it out.
i didn't mean to do you so wrong.
You were my angel.
My princess.
I worshipped you.
When I had time.
But, the beer got in the way.

I'm ok today.
I'm doing good today.
I have a good life today.
I am well loved.
I am sober and clean.
I give my all, to God.
I volunteer all my time.
And
I still think of you,
And,
Darling,
I still love you.

Be well,
My sweet,
My beautiful,
Angel,
Juliet,
Cinderella.
And,
Don't think of me.
Get on with your life.
I have!

I still love you.

-Romeo